Yep, I bought a preggo test yesterday… actually, I bought a 3-pack. They say breastfeeding is the best birth control (for the first 6 months, anyway), but I’ve heard plenty of stories saying otherwise. And it’s not like I’m on a normal cycle (or any cycle at all for that matter) so how would I know if I was pregnant?! And this is why I thought I was.…
~I had to leave work early on Tuesday because of a migraine. I tried to work through it, but ended up nauseous, hot and a bit dizzy.
~As soon as I got in my car to leave I started crying… emotional?!
~Arguing with the hubby – Wednesday morning, to be exact… moody!
~Starting to break out a little bit (like I did at the start of the last pregnancy)
~Pain at my cesarean incision site – from pregnancy bloat?!
~I recently lost 5 pounds (same as 1st pregnancy)
Steve was at work and I ran to Walgreens to buy the tests. When I got home I put Ryan to bed and I was shaking as I was opening the box. I kept thinking there’s no freakin’ way I’m pregnant! And a million things ran through my head.… I’m not ready yet! I need to find a new OB and a midwife AND a doula! I need to start Hypnobabies! I need to know more about VBACS! Is it even safe enough to attempt a VBAC this soon after a cesarean?! I’M NOT READY!
Similar thoughts went to my husband earlier in the day when we decided I should test.… “If I’m pregnant right now, it’s all your fault AND I’M NEVER SLEEPING WITH YOU AGAIN!”
Then I took the test.
I just stared at it the entire 2 minute wait. The single line appeared within seconds. I kept staring. And I kept staring. Well past the 2 minutes, I’m sure. For some reason I WANTED that second line to show up… I was actually a LITTLE BIT disappointed that it didn’t. HOW CRAZY IS THAT? because I’M NOT READY! but still.….… it, of course, would have been something wonderful. And the shocker? My husband was a bit disappointed too. Just call us The Duggar’s! (knock on wood). So what about all my symptoms?
~Migraine: I used to get them a lot (because of my birth control) and they’d make me throw up sometimes. So I guess it was just another one of those terrible things.
~Crying: I felt sick! and I was tired! Normal.
~Arguing with the hubby: hellllooooo, we have a 4 month old and we don’t get any sleep.
~Breaking out: it’s summer time and I’m stressed. Plus I don’t have the luxury anymore of the pregnant-woman glow.
~Pain at my incision: normal. Nerves are forming again, the area isn’t so numb anymore.
~Losing 5 pounds: I’ll thank breastfeeding and carrying around a 16 pound human being all day. But… who cares why, PASS THE ICE CREAM!
Now, seriously.….. I’m going to get some ice cream.
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That is crazy! But what I heard is that you should really only rely on it while you’re EXCLUSIVELY breastfeeding.. so basically the first 6 months. After that, you’re risking it. But I don’t really know! I agree, it’s a good thing I’m not pregnant right now
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Pregnancy scares are the worst because while the timing for adding another addition is off, a part of you gets excited because you’ll be bringing another new life into this world. You start to think of all the great times you share with your current little one and get excited about being able to relive those moments with your next child.
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I know what you mean. I took tons of tests while I was breastfeeding because I had the same symptoms I did when I was pregnant. Everything is different and new and it is easy to mix all the emotions together.
Hugs! Definitely been there
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I’m sure many can relate to feeling relieved and disappointed at the same time. I hope to have at least a year with my little boy before we try for another. Breastfeeding should help. My mom laughs at me for planning for the next one when this one isn’t even born yet
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babydickey Reply:
May 14th, 2010 at 7:50 am
Nothing wrong with planning ahead!! Originally I wanted to try for #2 this fall so they’d be the same distance apart that I am with my brother… but I’m thinking that’s too soon. I want more time with Ryan alone and I want to be REALLY prepared for my next pregnancy (homebirth). So now we’re thinking NEXT fall (2011)… let’s see if we make it that far, haha.
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I’ve felt the same way recently. I bought a pack of 50 pregnancy test strips on amazon because I’m too cheap to constantly buy them from the drug store. (Only $11 lol.) Anyway, are you using the pill too? A lot of women, my sister included, have EBF’ed and became pregnant before 6 months. She’s having her 4th this summer…unplanned. So I wouldn’t rely on it as a form of birth control.
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babydickey Reply:
May 14th, 2010 at 7:21 pm
No I’m not using a pill too.… before getting pregnant I tried like 5 different pills and the nuva ring… none of them worked for me. I had pretty bad side effects until my doctor finally said she thought I’d have a stroke and wouldn’t prescribe me anymore. So we started “family planning” and using a calendar to count days… it worked for just about a year before we got pregnant with Ryan (unplanned) — and we knew we were risking it the night he was conceived, so I think the method worked pretty well for us..
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